~ The End ~

Hello everyone ..

This is my final blog entry .. I will never be blogging at all ..

I spent my whole night thinking how to start my last words ..

Day after day .. Time passes away rapidly ..

I don't hv any idea on neither my future nor my life is going to be ..

It seems to be harder than b4 .. Since i started my blog until now, i never talk much about my feeling (nt much doesn't mean no) ..

Thoughts like "What do I live for?" and "What is the meaning of my life?" keep bothering me .. It seems like a feeling of melancholy, and no medicine will cure it.

I know that i should be more optimistic bt unfortunately i never actually did that .. Why ?

I don't hv the magic or power to change my expectations bt i do hv the chance to look forward .. But why ?

What is the meaning of life? Why are we here?

I don't need an answer or an advice .. Why?

Eventhough one day i will bcom a poor man; eventhough my life is unsuccessful, hopeless; or eventhough i will bcom a prisoner .. 

I won't try to blame anyone ..

Why ?

Bcos ..

That's my life ..

Thanks for helping me in the past .. Thanks for advising me in the past .. Thanks for caring me in the past .. Thanks for believing me in the past .. Thanks for everything ..

Finally it comes to an end and i appreciate all ur support as well ..

I would like to say THANK YOU for visiting my blog n accompanying me to the very end ..

THANK YOU ..

I m here to say GOOD BYE N ALL DA BEST in ur life .. 

~ The End ~

Nightmares

It all started with the nightmares .. 

Is this a dream? Am I asleep? Is this really happening to me? 

Strapped in a strait jacket, I find myself stationed uncomfortably on a hard metal chair .. Two uniformed police officers stand over me, staring down at me .. One of them tugs forcefully on the jacket’s straps to verify that they are secure .. The other suddenly jerks my feet up off the floor almost pulling me from my chair in the process ..

Holding my shoes by the heels, he allows the first policeman to lock a pair of inversion boots tightly around my ankles ..

Next, I hear that distinct tearing sound as one of the officers rips off a couple yards of duct tape from a large gray roll with his teeth .. Together, the two meticulously wrap the tape steadfastly around the boots and over the buckles, making absolutely certain the boots won’t fly open once I’m hanging upside down .. 

Unable to move either my arms or feet, I attempt to see just how tight the strait jacket is by wriggling back and forth in my steel folding chair ..

There is no give, no slack at all .. I am completely confined ..

( To Be Continued .. )

as sure as fate

as sure as fate ..

who ever thought about my feel ?

who ever thought i should be concerned about ?

mpmum

calon ? wakil calon ? jentera ?

who knows ? 

i duno y should i join this kind of stuff jus to get the .............

i m so blur ..

nobody talk to me .. nobody cares about me .. just no one who cares about my feeling .. just bcos i m a stranger? 

i m so tired .. 

again again n again

bad things fall against my life till i m so tired ..

i m just a normal person .. a normal person sure got the feelings .. as ..

k . i . n . g . 

so funny ..

i cant even understand wat i m talking now but jus feel like wanna voice out ..

however ..

Why do you not understand my feelings? 

i m ..

i m just an annoying people ..

i m just a stupid guy ..

i m ..

2009

新的一年新的开始。。

就以华文为主！！！ 哈哈！！！

新年快乐！！！

今年是牛年。。牛？好好笑（其实也不怎么好笑）。。

希望今年可以比往年更快乐 ，更健康 ，更顺利 。。

希望我和他会更好 。。乖乖哈 。。

还有 。。

更希望我和她会更更更更甜蜜蜜 。。哈哈哈哈哈 ！！！（你们不准笑 ，只有我可以）哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！！！

祝大家新年快乐 。。（很土啊）

Midnight Oil vs Big Claps

I was up all night burning the midnight oil last night and now i'm still acting like an owl "searching for food" with my roommate .. 

But, spending out my time is hopeless, sleep is the best policy i think ..

"This paper is killing me !!!" This is wat my coursemate had written on the exam paper today .. It's reasonable to say that and still i have to admit that is our own problems and mistakes that we din't study hard before .. No Blames No Claims ..

U know wat ? Today was the most funniest day (in my exam life's history) cos me and my course mates were trying to do something stupid ..

As usual, we meet up outside the exam hall waiting for the examiner to "welcome" us .. Before we going to "war" with the exam, we play a game .. If the questions come out which i never studied before, i hv to stand up immediately and clap for at least 3 times loudly with a big smile .. 

I "spent" most of my confident and consequently had created the funniest act in front of everyone .. So so so "tak boleh pakai" !!!

LOLz .. Finally, it's over and i'm glad n very happy to say "GOOD BYE BYE !!!" to my VLES 1002 ..

 

*Communication*

Communication ?

Communication is unavoidable .. "One cannot not communication" .. Facial expression, posture, gesture, clothing, and a host of other behaviors oofer cues about our attitudes ..

Communication operates on two levels .. Everytime two or more people communicate, they exchange two kinds of messages .. 

Communication is not a Panacea .. Although communication can smooth out the bumps and straighten the road to success, it won't always get you what you want. Misunderstandings and ill feelings can increase when people communicate badly ..

So, what mean communication ?

Irreversible

At one time or another, we have all wished we could take back words we regretted uttering ..

Unfortunately, this isn't possible ..

Our words and deeds are recorded in others' memories, and we cant erase them ..

As the old saying goes, ppl may forgive but they dont 4get ..

In fact, often the more vigorously you try to erase an act, the more vividly it stands out.

No Title

There is no words for me to describe tis ..

Clowns wear a face that's painted intentionally on them so they appear to be happy or sad .. What kind of mask are you wearing today?

You can choose to be happy or sad and whichever you choose that is what you get .. No one is really responsible to make someone else happy, no matter what most people have been taught and accept as true ..

I love my past .. I love my present .. I am not ashamed of what i have had, and i am not sad ..

honey 1st trip to Penang

wow ~
1st trip ?
Normally 1st trip is the most memorable n sweetest trip ~
Undeniable it makes me feel sweet n blissful in every single moment with honey ~

This trip means a lot for me n it built up our love more closer n brighter as well .. ( broken english) ..
the memory still fresh in my mind even a week ago ~
i still can remember how sweet my honey smile ~
Hope to be sweet memorable trip for her ever ~
Love U ~

What a word

"word"
In my life, lots of words flew by my ears n some keep inside my heart .. even locked ..
but then, i still a stupid ..
no matter how, i think i m too serious with some words ..
what the hell m i thinking ..
what's wrong if someone say smtg that hurt me ..
y cant i just let it b like ntg happen ..
honestly, i m so stupid n lousy to "close" my thought ..
haiz ..
what a stupid n annoying guy i m ..
i should shut my mouth off n act like ntg happen ..
TAN CHIN CHEW !!! U STUPID !!!

FIRE

"FIRE"
I m hot now !!!
hot n spicy !!!
it just a while i get into "fire" !!!
so sudden but soon i wil blow out ~
i cant "tahan" anymore ~
i wanna scold !!! i wanna scold !!! i wanna scold ~~
each word i type so heavy ~
cos my hand is heavy cos by .........
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!

RETURN

"RETURN"
A word that define as "go home" ~ haha ~
In my "dictionary", it means that smtg have to pay back to someone i owe ~
Just about the time cos it seems like it nids time ~
However, i felt like ......
hoho ^^
Dunno wat to say ~
Hapi Holiday !!!

The Real Problem

"PROBLEM"
What does it mean by problem ?
What is my problem ?
Eventhough myself doesnt know wat is my problem ~

What do you think?
As i refer to my own "dictionary", problem is commonly defined as the thing i done tat is totally unnecessary and it might be harmful ~ my opinion la ~
The real problem is not whether machines think but whether men do ~

It might b purposely or ........
As long as we know what to do next then it's ok if we did anything wrong ~
Rather than we just sit there n do nothing ~
Hmmmmm ~

1st time to Penang

hehe ^^
About one week time ~
Honey will go to penang to meet my parents ~
Is nice n hope she get know well about my family ~
Is vital i think ~

The most important thing is i hv the "sweet sweet" wif her in Penang ~
I m excited now n wish make it as a sweet n memorable trip for my honey ~
Lets get it started now n make it as sweet as i could ~
GAMBATEH for myself !!!

obstacles

"OBSTACLE"
This is wat i call myself currently ~
It seems to be the new "flower" name for myself ~
The actual truth, i had have a bad feeling about myself ~

I m the BIGGEST OBSTACLE in someone's life ~
Although i nt mean to b like tat but it still make me feel that i m the worst ~
I hope to hear from "someone" that could tell me that i m not ~
I reli hope that ~

Well, is time for me to "slap" myself ~
I hate myself more than ever ~
For some reason, i wish i could be a better koko ~
Is nt tat i wanna to do something but for sure i nid to change smtg in my stupid mind ~
Tat kind of problems is preventable if i let it goes in rite way ~

Sory for wat i said n i hope to b the best i could ~
Give me the "golden" chance so tat i can prove tat possible mission ~
Didi sory ~

haha ^^

haha ^^
hmmmmm ~
i m glad to hv a didi ~
he is nice n i wil very sayang him ~
although sometimes he nt that care about me but i know he is nt tat bad ~
at least he is much closer wif me now ~
hope to be bro forever cos i reli tired about others ~

honey honey honey ~

hehe ^^
today i will c my honey liao ~
haha ^^
hapi ~ duno how ~ me bcom more ugly liao ~ cham =='''
so sad la my hair ~
kanasai nia ~
honey ~ how r u ? gt more pretty ?
hehe ^^
nvm ~
nice nice oo ~ i wan u nice nice ~ hehe ^^
muaksss ~ i love u ~